The subconscious can only ever communicate to us with a feeling. We form conceptualizations of these feelings and many of us become skilled at expressing our concepts in our languages. If the feeling that nags at us could speak our language it would initiate the conversation frequently and in later years it may evolve the structure of concepts but still unintelligible to most of us.
If we recognize the feeling many will feel it as insulting to them selves. That offense to our present consciousness comes from our impulse to defend an already established concept of what the feeling is. In our defense of our certainty we may then argue back to it.
The interpretation of this ever present and often nagging feeling is the result of this hypothesis that begins the explanation for humans as the answer to the meaning by our actions in purpose of the existence of life.
The feeling can only be interpreted one way when the evidence we now have shows us and connects the dots as consistently fitting with all of the visible and measurable mass and energy that is in motion in every aspect of our entire universe and here down on Earth, in our biologically effected behavioral lives.
The conversation with our subconsciousness can be abstractly interpreted as if two people who are each other’s antagonists are engaged in communication:
“Like I’ve been trying to tell you since you started thinking about yourself you should __________ to the ________ of ____ _______. You fool.”
“That can’t be it. I’m sure it’s something grander than that. Because we humans are grander than just that purpose. I would probably fail at that anyway. I feel guilty thinking about it. So, that can’t be it.”
“Your _______ won’t ________ if you do not, you fool. Don’t you want that?”
“But that’s what those other people are doing and they’re not as happy and comfortable as I am when I’m not doing that. I'm a busy special person with a lot to do before I die, dammit. Besides those other people don’t seem to be succeeding at that anyway. I mean, the world is a really f**ked-up place. There’s billions and billions of other people and things don’t seem any better. So that can’t be it.”
“You don’t have to ____ ______ fool. Just _________ yourself. You need to use the rest of them to do that. I won’t shut-up until you get that. Fool.”
“I’m certain you are wrong. Whatever you are you nagging feeling. You feel like a burden now. I think you're making me feel guilt that I’m certain I should not have, so go away.”
“You just try to make me go-away. I’ll be knocking on this door to your consciousness constantly. Louder. More frequently. Moron.”
“This double Martini and these pharmaceuticals, a bunch of theology and philosophy and a thousand books and a lot of dangerous activities and several bad relationships will take care of you. Take that! Now I won’t hear you. You muffled guilty burdening feeling.”
"knock knock knock knock, knock knock knock knock . . ."
For many of us this conversation may last a lifetime.
But this message is not the meaning of human life by itself. It contains the meaning of our purposeful actions which guide us. We resist it too often. These actions we are being told to proceed with are intrinsically connected to all of the motions of energy and mass in this universe and we carry that instruction through life’s journey.
Believe this? I hope not. See it you may.
Copyright Reserved, James G. Mason, 2014, October. JamesGMason.com